reflections from shards of an average life

i hate how when a girl acts the way half the guys do, or does stuff that guys can do freely, she’s a slut. i know it stemmed from a warning not to get pregnant and was started so girls where to scared to unless in a stable relationship (marriage) but come on, now you dont have to marry to have a secure relationship, you dont even have to get pregnant at all. its just so stupid :s 

wow, the moon and sky generally is beautiful tonight. its times like these that i want to grab a warm drink, a warm baggy jumper and sit looking at the star amongst friends. someone i feel comfortable with and can talk to easily, charlie is top of the list and i dont know any that follow straight after - there seems to be a gap then everyone else files in behind it. i miss having a guy who i could talk to and relaxed around, bob is like my brother, but has become the brother that you live with - in others words almost taken for granted, we dont talk as much; we use to have talks like bestfriends but now its just comfort of being able to sit in silence. although thats kinda changed now that schools finished, i think we’re already distanced a bit :/ but still, thats what i miss. none of that bullcrap you hear girls say ‘i want a boy bestfriend who calls me pretty and will always be there to cuddle with me’, just a good guy who is a good friend, will watch out for me like a friend would, maybe nice for them to be protective but not like a boyfriend would, like a friend. ffs, its hard to explain, charlie is my bestfriend and i dont ever want to loose her, but since a kid ive had a guy friend too and i miss it. 

wow i sound pathetic, back to the stars - they are freaking amazing tonight :) i love the night sky

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